Thursday, April 22, 2010

Countdowns and Being a Burden

anding minus eleven days and counting...
I have 11 days until my surgery. In the last week I've gone in for my final pre-surgical consult and my pre-admission. I officially have a room reserved for me on the day of surgery. The only thing I have left to do is another trip to the lab for last minute stuff. Other than that I just have to remember to call on the Friday before and find out what time to show up.

They did my official weigh-in. According to their scale, my starting weight is 261. There seems to be between a one and three lb difference between their scale and mine. I'll keep my ticker and counts linked to my scale.

I don't have much of a pre-op diet. My surgeon said that he isn't worried about it because my BMI isn't in the range of super obese and while the other surgeon is a stickler for the diet, he only said not to go out for a "last meal". When I went for pre-admission they told me clear liquids from noon to midnight and nothing after. I can live with that.

My mother-in-law is coming up for the week of surgery. I'm hoping I'll be up and about in less than a week and can send her on back home. I feel bad that she's going to have to use a whole week of vacation time to wrangle the kids while I do this.

I guess that is one of the things I need to work on other than the size of me. I do anything for anyone and will help everyone until I've run out of help to offer, but when it comes to asking for any kind of assistance for myself I don't like to do it and feel guilty when I get it. How do you convince yourself that you are not a burden on others when you spent your formative years being told your existence was just that.


  1. Oh are NOT a burden. It's your turn to be taken care of for a bit and you'd do the same for you so try to remember that. I'm so excited for you!

  2. I am so happy for you! New Follower. Looking forward to following your journey1 We are here for you!
    Come see me sometime.

  3. You are not a burden. People like helping others. It makes them feel good. Plus grandmothers + grandchildren = happiness! Allow her the chance to help you.

    Your surgery is just around the corner! Yeah!

  4. Amanda's right...I'm the same though, I can't stand to ask for favours and I also feel guilty if I have to.

    I did spend my formative years listening to my dad say we were like a ball and chain around his you think that could have anything to do with it?

    He didn't really mean it. He had a drink problem and was stuck in a job he hated but he couldn't leave it because he had responsibilities. He's been sober for years now and I bet he doesn't even remember that he used to say that...or that we would have heard it.

    Good luck for your surgery! I'm sure it'll go great. It'll soon be here and you'll be out the other side. xxx

  5. Welcome! I am so excited for your surgery, it will be here before you know it! <3

  6. Hi! Stopping by from DRAZIL & SHENIQUA. I'm so excited for you and a little jealous! You certainly do not sound like a burdon to me! You are doing a wonderful thing for yourself, taking the steps to be healthy! Keep us informed!

  7. Found your blog through Drazil! You are so close, good luck!!

  8. Congrats on your upcoming band adventure- you are going to love it! I started at 261 as well, I lost 10 on my pre-op diet and the rest (so far) with the band... I'll be thinking of you on surgery day. Keep us posted :)